Exahusted

Living under stress is not a good thing. This last days I have felt so miserable that I hardly rest at night. Bed time is supposed to be a moment to rest and forget about the world, but when I'm under the effects of stress I hardly sleep. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and when I look at the clock I realize that there's 4 more hours to go before the time I usually wake up every day (6 AM). When this happens I cannot go back to sleep again and it frustrates me a lot to know that the following day I will feel like crap at work for not having a good sleep.

While I'm awake in bed this early, I think about a lot of things like work, my family, God, Things that I have to do the next day, and all sort of weird ideas about how I perceive the world, which makes me wonder if I have lived my life in a wrong way.

I hate it when I can't sleep because my brain doesn't work fine the next day. My short term memory just vanishes away and I don't rationalize well. I spend most of the day with a weird feeling of numbness. It's horrible. When on this mood, I don't do things right nor take the best decisions. I really need to rest. This feeling of exhaustion is becoming normal for me and I'm starting to think that it is the culprit of my strange way of thinking.

The likelihood of going through the same the following night is high. Something needs to happen or I'll get crazy (yes, even more).